Years of my life were squandered because I refused to let go of the past. Despite how horrific it...
Updated: Mar 25, 2022
Years of my life were squandered because I refused to let go of the past. Despite how horrific it had actually been, it seemed safer than the unknowns of the future. I epitomized Einstein’s definition of insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result. I eventually broke down and came to terms with how much suffering I was inflicting on myself and others. Almost a decade after I realized that I needed to change, I came across individuals who I thought could actually show me HOW. The people I’m talking about weren’t family or friends; but rather, complete strangers on TED Talks and motivational YouTube channels. I know it might sound improbable, but just by watching those videos, I was able to break so many of the chains that held me. At this point, the problem I was faced with was that I was surrounded by toxic individuals that would hinder my growth. I made the decision to radically change my life. I was going to start living alone, and I was no longer going to socialize with the people I knew. As someone who had been highly codependent their whole life, this was one of the most difficult things I’ve ever done. I essentially hid myself from the world so I could heal. As fragile as my newfound serenity and light were, I knew they had to be protected.
Although I was amazed at how far I got on my own, I ultimately hit a wall. I needed someone willing to go deep into my world, someone who could help me understand my actions and teach me to change my patterns FOREVER. My whole outlook on life shifted when I finally found a coach that I could trust. I felt comfortable showing her all of me, especially the shameful parts. I felt understood, and sat in the presence of complete acceptance and love. Through her eyes, I was able to see the beauty in what I previously thought too ugly to share with the world.
Trying to succinctly describe how my coaching experience helped me to recover in a caption is nearly impossible, but if you would like to hear more, please DM me. And I'm always available if you would like to share the struggles you’re facing.