Uncertainty, self-doubt, and fear in a million forms dictated every choice I made...

Uncertainty, self-doubt, and fear in a million forms dictated every choice I made. Beginning with my first memories, I was afraid of everything and everyone. It got so bad at one point in time that I developed agoraphobia and could only leave the house to drop my son off at school. Every person I met, every thought I had, every feeling I felt, all triggered paralyzing anxiety and depression. Despite being topped out on sedatives, all of my doctors had basically labeled me a lost cause. These were doctors that truly cared and tried to help, professionals with all the knowledge in the world, but there was nothing they could do to save me. My will to live was slowly fading, and simply not driving head-on into traffic each day took all the energy I had. So what changed? • I took an honest inventory of my life - What were my current circumstances? Where was my life headed if things didn't change? Who else would be negatively impacted? • I figured out what I actually WANTED - No limiting myself to what I believed to be "reality", or what I was "capable of". Simply, what were my dreams? I'm so glad I didn't limit myself btw, it turns out I had radically undervalued my abilities. • I removed myself from all toxic people in my life - This was one of the most challenging, but rewarding steps. No school could have taught me what walking that road alone did. • I changed my habits - I got honest with myself about the way I had lived my life up to that point. I made a list of the habits that I knew would keep me trapped and created an action plan to tackle each. • I traded narcotics for nervous system retraining - Terrifying, but I'm so grateful I did this. Barbiturates always caused rebound anxiety attacks and poor judgment. Healing my nervous system was much more sustainable. • I hired a coach - This was by far one of the most important steps. So far, I had been discovering and learning to overcome my roadblocks, but I needed someone to help me rebuild and create. I honestly don't think I could have done it on my own. At the time, I was so fragile it was necessary to "borrow confidence". Message me to learn more, or if you need support 💙

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